been a long time coming

So its been a while since I have done anything fashion related after I finished my course about a year ago. but now I seem to have got the bug. 

So here goes...

                                                                                                                       more to come soon........

after the end, comes a new beginning

Hey, It's been a while since my last post. It's not that I've been busy because I generally fill my time with inconsequential stuff, like looking at myself in the mirror 20 times before I leave the house just to make sure I look okay. Like taking extra long showers, like browsing through other peoples lives on facebook, like deciding on the perfect outfit, like sleeping most of the day away and sitting around watching films and not making the most of my life. This is not even half of the stuff that I busy myself with well at the same time not really doing anything of real significance. 


This is down to being lazy, not caring about others(vanity), and my fear of failure therefore I don't even bother trying. I have figured that the first step in the right direction is admitting that - I am afraid! But I also refuse to ruin my own life and that is why I am going to move on. 
I am afraid of what might happen in the future but I am going to push myself. I am going to focus on what is important! I am going to do what is right and I believe that the only way I am going to get through this is through faith and God. Even when I feel like I'm not good enough and that I have gone past the point of no return, I know that he is still there for me. He loves me no matter what I have done or could ever do.

Isaiah 40 vs 31 - but those who hope in the lord shall renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not grow faint.

Trial run of cupcakes before kitchen tea

First attempt at making icing and piping:)

Just an update

WOW can't believe how long it has been since my last post!!! I guess life is pretty busy at the mo. What with my brother getting married on the 13th of April 2012, fortunately we aren't superstitious as it saved my brother a lot of money! Would you believe it that no one wants to get married on friday the 13th! 

Anyways I have been very busy trying out different cupcake recipes and working on piping icing for the kitchen tea which happened just 2days ago and it went down really well :)
I have also been working on cutting out butterflies for decorating the wedding venue, its more time consuming than difficult tbh. What more exciting is the family arrive next week!! It will be so amazing to have my grandparents, cousin and uncle hear to celebrate with us.
I <3 my family

Letting go because I'm loosing my grip

Why is it that I always want what other people have! I look over, and it looks like their life is better than mine, and I think to myself; I want that! It looks good from where I'm standing!
I have had a bit of a revelation though as I sit and think about the things that I could of had and the life that I could be living, the life that I'm watching from the other side. Its only a glimpse! what I am seeing is not everything, you don't see the workings going on behind the scenes. You just see what they want you to see.

Basically what I'm trying to get at is that I have spent a lot of my life feeling sorry for myself and blaming things that have happened to me on everyone else, but ME. I have begun to realize that I can let those things hold me back, stunt my growth and stop me from ever really enjoying my life. Or I can learn from what happened and take some responsibility for the part that I played in letting those situations hold me back.

The one thing that I have learnt is that without faith I would not of made it this far, and that with faith I can go further than I could ever imagine.  

Ombre

I have been trying to grow my hair for ages after having a pixie cut for about a year, I think. So as much as 'ombre' has been around for ages I have not yet had the pleasure of trying it out as my hair has been in that awkward stage for more than a while.

Now that it is longer I got it dyed and the result has been, well interesting to say the least. I mean I love it but the looks I get when walking down the street are amusing I have to smile to stop from laughing. 

I guess I do love a good entrance, think I need the ends a bit blonder still - but its getting there. <3

(don't know why but the bottom image does look a lil oranger than it is.

Back to the underground

After having 3 amazing days off from work I am now ready to face the Cellars again. I work as head waitress at Harvey's Cellars in Bristol. It is a pretty good job thanks to the people I work with but we do work crazy hours and spend most of our time in a room without windows. Which I have to say does make the time go quicker but can make you go crazy at times....which is bad as I'm already 'off my rocker'.

To think I actually studied Fashion and Clothing and am now a waitress :/ problem is I still don't know what I want to do!!